Monday, November 19, 2012

3 years ago...

Today marks 3 years of remission!

I have had nothing but great checkups and no reason for concern. Praise the lord.


 

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Aftermath.

After several months of Physical & Speech Therapy they doctors came to a consensus...I am as good as it is going to get. They said that we could do therapy for years and see minimal changes.

They gave me some tips on stretching & massages to help with the chronic pain as well as the advice to slow down while talking. UM have you met me ;O)

As far as physical therapy I really couldn't even do much because the exercises were causing migraines. That was a very big let down for me. I felt like my body was failing me.

All in all I have gained some knowledge of my body and how the muscles work and all the nerve damage I have. I will continue to use my heating pad and try to maintain a level of activity on the left side that won't causes any more damage.

Monday, March 5, 2012

Face to face.

When I looked in the mirror I see a happy twenty-something year old, mother and wife. I see my life flourishing, a big smile, and myself "smizing" right back at me. I see my "old face". When I listen to myself I hear a peppy, loud voice, tainted with a southern twang with a splash of "sweet valley high". I hear my "old voice".

People say reality is your own perception. And I suppose what I am seeing and hearing is what I WANT TO SEE AND HEAR. Not what is real in this day or time. Every where I look I see signs of myself and I have no doubt that I am still in there...But I am coming face to face with the reality.

The reality is my face not mine anymore. The reality is the cancer took over my face and body. The reality is I have edema in my face. The reality is I am missing part of my neck. The reality is I have a scar all the way across my neck. The reality is the saliva from radiation in my mouth is eating away at my teeth. The reality is I am missing part of my tongue. The reality is people cannot understand me. The reality is people look at me because I am different. The reality is I am in chronic pain. The reality is I have my life. The reality is I am a cancer survivor.

And I need to find a way to be happy with myself in this reality.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Living with cancer.

A fellow Cancer survivor recently wrote a post on her blog about living with cancer.

This has been on my mind even more recently then ever. After a few days of mulling over the term "living with cancer" I can honestly tell you Cancer has become a part of my family. Yes, you read that right. Go ahead re-read it.

A part of your family, you ask? Yes, cancer is right there with us every step of the way, for the ups and downs, it is sitting beside us at the dinner table, on family vacations, and right there when we wake up every morning, staring back at me when I look in the mirror.

Not a day goes by that I don't think about the what ifs and how I will address this topic with Briggsley and our future children. On one hand I want to be sworn to silence and never lay something so heavy on their hearts. But, I know that honesty is the best policy. I believe that I would want to know and would feel hurt if I was left in the dark, even as a child.

As much as cancer is the black sheep of the family, it looks like it is here to stay. The word is at least. Praying that it stays in the shadow of our day to day lives, and doesn't feel like it is being neglected and decide to star in the Shaylynn show.

Living With Cancer.

A fellow Cancer survivor recently wrote a post on her blog about what it mean to her her to be living with cancer.

This has been on my mind even more recently then ever. After a few days of mulling over the term "living with cancer" I can honestly tell you Cancer has become a part of my family. Yes, you read that right. Go ahead re-read it.

A part of your family, you ask? Yes, cancer is right there with us every step of the way, for the ups and downs, it is sitting beside us at the dinner table, on family vacations, and right there when we wake up every morning, staring back at me when I look in the mirror.

Not a day goes by that I don't think about the what ifs and how I will address this topic with Briggsley and our future children. On one hand I want to be sworn to silence and never lay something so heavy on their hearts. But, I know that honesty is the best policy. I believe that I would want to know and would feel hurt if I was left in the dark, even as a child.

As much as cancer is the black sheep of the family, it looks like it is here to stay. The word Cancer at least, praying that it stays in the shadow of our day to day lives, not the star.

Friday, November 19, 2010

1 year of remission.

1 year ago I completed my 37 rounds of radiation & 8 rounds of chemo.
That means officially 1 year in remission. I cannot even express how blessed I feel to be able to say that I have been cancer free for a year. I made it about 6 months in 08/09' before my recurrence. So many wonderful things have happened in the past year and that just makes this milestone all the more amazing!! Thanks you Lord for this blessing!

When praying for healing, ask great things of God and expect great things from God. But let us seek for that healing that really matters, the healing of the heart, enabling us to trust God simply, face God honestly, and live triumphantly. -Arlo F. Newell

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Oral Cancer Story Featured

My story was featured in thie month's edition of Dental Assisting Digest. You can read the article here